So, Wednesday I find myself inside an MRI tube desperately wishing something familiar: maybe the pain is all in my head. I had some good coaching - for years doctors told me that they could find nothing wrong with me and sent me to psychiatrists ... planting that seed of doubt in myself. Until one kind doctor took the time to actually look. I was ill, very ill and I was in pain and it was not going away and was most definitely not in my head.
Every now and then, though, I start wishing that it was in my head. If it was all in my head I could stop it, get off the morphine, sleep through the night, comfortably walk around Brisbane with my hubby, sit for 14 hours on a plane and just be bored, you know, have a normal life. So I found myself in that noisy tube desperately wishing again that my lower back pain was not caused by two flattened discs, bone rubbing on bone ... wishing it was just all in my head. The last time I had an MRI I lived in Norway - maybe they interpret things different there. It could happen, right?
Got the call today from the MRI people who reported that not only do I have bone rubbing on bone, I have a compressed nerve and mild scoliosis.
I guess that's what I get for wishing ...
Have an appointment with the pain specialist on the 8th.
Every now and then, though, I start wishing that it was in my head. If it was all in my head I could stop it, get off the morphine, sleep through the night, comfortably walk around Brisbane with my hubby, sit for 14 hours on a plane and just be bored, you know, have a normal life. So I found myself in that noisy tube desperately wishing again that my lower back pain was not caused by two flattened discs, bone rubbing on bone ... wishing it was just all in my head. The last time I had an MRI I lived in Norway - maybe they interpret things different there. It could happen, right?
Got the call today from the MRI people who reported that not only do I have bone rubbing on bone, I have a compressed nerve and mild scoliosis.
I guess that's what I get for wishing ...
Have an appointment with the pain specialist on the 8th.
3 comments:
No fun - sorry!
So sorry to hear this, but glad they have a diagnosis for you to try to find a helpful treatment. I'll pray that the pain specialist has some relief for you.
Lori, I hope they can come up with some type of pain therapy for you. I have a friend who is in that field and has had good success treating some of the young men and women returning from the Middle East. Try not to get too discouraged, my thoughts are with you, and there seems to be many people around you who care.
Talk to you later.
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